Rugby League

License article

Farah almost didn't play Origin III in year of highs and lows

YOU might look at Robbie Farah's week and consider it has been a - how shall we say this? - unique one. From the lows of Twitter trolls and apologies to the Prime Minister, to the highs of being named NSW's best player from this year's State of Origin series.

But his week has merely followed the pattern of his year; the highs of the greatest individual match of his career, Origin II, and the death of his mother only four days later.

''I look back at one of the best nights of my life, and then going back into the sheds afterwards, and the family telling me that mum wasn't there,'' Farah said of the night that stamped him as an Origin player.

''Then obviously the days after that … coming off such a high, probably the best performance of my career, and then to lose mum, it just rocked my world. Such a high, and then to stoop so low. It's going to be a time in my life I'm going to remember for all the right reasons, and all the wrong reasons.''

It will be impossible for Farah to consider this a good year, despite the individual achievements, given the loss of Sonia Farah to pancreatic cancer. After winning the Brad Fittler Medal on Wednesday night - as voted by his Blues teammates - Farah revealed how seriously he considered withdrawing from the deciding State of Origin match as a result of his mother's death.

''Going into game three, straight after mum passed I said to the family, 'I don't know if I can play, I don't know how I'm going to do it','' he said. ''They told me I had to do it, and that's obviously what mum would have wanted.''

This week, Farah's resolve was tested again, when he publicly called for changes to social media laws after being the target of online abuse, but was subsequently forced to apologise to Prime Minister Julia Gillard after it was revealed he had posted an offensive tweet last year.

While he was reluctant to talk specifically about this week's controversial events, he said he had ''dealt with everything that's been put in front of me the best I can''.

''It'll be one to remember,'' Farah said of his year. ''When you look back, I started the year with a suspension and a few niggling injuries, like a broken nose and a hand injury; criticism of going on TV and fronting Matty Johns and trying to protect my team, which caused a bit of an uproar; then going into City camp and the criticism from Blocker [Steve Roach]; and then Origin and mum. It'll definitely make me stronger. Surely I can't endure a year like this again.''