Cyberbullying victim's final message
Canadian teenager Amanda Todd documented her spiral into anxiety, depression and addictions before taking her own life. Lifeline 131 114, Kids Helpline 1800 55 1800.PT2M0S http://www.canberratimes.com.au/action/externalEmbeddedPlayer?id=d-27m9q 620 349 October 15, 2012
"I have nobody. I need someone."
A month after posting those words online 15-year-old Canadian teenager Amanda Todd took her own life, pushed to the limit by three years of cyberbullying that spiralled into anxiety, depression and addictions.
He eventually gathered people's names and sent Amanda's [topless] video to her new school ... It increased her anxiety and she couldn't go to class
In a nine-minute video posted online on September 7, the teenager didn't speak but told her devastating story in a series of handwritten notes she held up to the camera.
Cry for help ... Amanda Todd.
On Wednesday the 10th grade student and cheerleader died in her home in British Columbia, just weeks before her 16th birthday.
The video has gone viral and #RIPAmanda was trending across Twitter, as well as Amanda Michelle Todd memorial Facebook pages attracting hundreds of thousands of "likes".
In an interview with the Vancouver Sun her mother Carol Todd said Amanda made the video to help others.
Tragic ... Amanda Todd.
"I have lost one child, but know she wanted her story to save 1000 more."
Amanda's video told of a mistake she made while using webcams with her friends when she was 12.
A man she met online was complimenting her looks and asked her to flash, so she did.
Took her own life .... Amanda Todd.
The screenshot of her posing topless circulated on social media sites, leading to fights at school, a struggle with drugs and alcohol and relentless online bullying.
She changed cities and schools, but the trouble followed her.
"The internet stalker she flashed kept stalking her," Mrs Todd said.
"Every time she moved schools he would go undercover and become a Facebook friend. What the guy did was he went online to the kids who went to [the new school] and said that he was going to be a new student - that he was starting school the following week and that he wanted some friends and could they friend him on Facebook.
"He eventually gathered people's names and sent Amanda's [topless] video to her new school."
The video and photos led to repeated taunts: "Oh, there's the porn star."
"It increased her anxiety and she couldn't go to class," Mrs Todd said.
Amanda also wrote that an encounter with another girl's boyfriend started even more bullying, which escalated into a physical attack.
When she got home, she wrote, she drank bleach. "It killed me inside and I thought I actually was going to die."
She was taken to a hospital to flush out the bleach. More anxiety, self-harm and overdosing followed and, despite counselling and antidepressants, she was taken to hospital again after an overdose.
The last cards on her video said simply: "I have nobody. I need someone. My name is Amanda Todd."
Mrs Todd said Amanda had spent time in hospital in September, and was slowly starting to get better.
"She felt like a normal teenager, she was so proud of herself," Mrs Todd said.
"She went out with friends, she went to the mall, she said to me, 'Mum, this is the first time that I feel normal again. I have had the best day ever'."
Mrs Todd said Amanda recently left her a private video message, which may answer some of the questions about her death.
"I'm not ready to look at it yet.
"The coroner has told me it will provide closure for me but I can't look at it yet."
The online bullying has even followed Amanda to her death, as memorial sites were covered in abuse and even a copy of the topless photo, the Toronto Star reported.
British Columbia Premier Christy Clark posted a video on YouTube deploring the tragedy. Bullying "isn't a rite of passage", she said. "Bullying has to stop".
The British Columbia gym where Amanda was a cheerleader posted a statement on its Facebook page.
"I ask that we all watch her video and share her story so that her loss is not in vain," the statement read.
"Allow this to be her legacy. Allow us to all look around and find the next Amanda before another precious spunky teenager is lost."
smh.com.au with AP
* Support is available for anyone who may be distressed by calling Lifeline 131 114, Mensline 1300 789 978, Kids Helpline 1800 551 800.