The numbers tell the story. Six failed IVF attempts over 10 years. Close to $40,000 spent in the process. Pregnant naturally at 45. Giving birth for the first time at 46.
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Liz Walton's road to motherhood was as traumatic as it was glorious.
She is now 50, mum to four-year-old Willow, with husband Greg.
"I might not have the energy levels of someone in their 20s but I'm loving who I am and being confident and having inner peace," she said.
And the Queanbeyan mum is passing on her experiences now as a fertility coach, drawing on her own experiences and 25 years researching holistic and alternative therapies.
Liz says it was only when she had given up on the dream of being a mother and worked to overcome some big emotional issues within her own life, that she did fall pregnant.
"I help women who struggle to get pregnant or stay pregnant, and those who feel it's time to let go - but are not sure how," she said.
"I also offer emotional therapy and healing for people struggling with other areas of life, who need a hand to reach a place of calm."
Liz candidly says that "there is no medical evidence" to back up her approach to improving fertility.
"But my pregnancy journey, and the work I have done with my clients, shows that when you deal with your emotions and set yourself on a healthier path, mentally, miracles can happen," she said.
The Fertility Society of Australia says one in six couples in Australia and New Zealand will suffer infertility.
The society says infertility is "the inability of a couple to achieve conception after a year of unprotected intercourse, or the inability to carry pregnancies to a live birth".
Liz says she has worked with 25 women and all but four have fallen pregnant. She adds the caveat that she remains in contact with clients for up to two years following her assistance to see if they have been successful in becoming pregnant.
Her own miracle, Willow, brought her a love she never expected.
"It is a really tough job but absolutely amazing to see the world through her eyes. And I absolutely applaud everyone who has had more than one child," she said, with a laugh.
Liz believes dealing with stress, anxiety, grief, childhood traumas and other mental blocks can help smooth the road to pregnancy.
"More than anything, I want women to know that what we think is impossible, can actually be achieved if we're willing to go through a bit of discomfort to heal our soul and restore our spirit," she said.
Liz met her own husband Greg, a Canberra boy who'd gone to Grammar, in Africa.
"I went on a whim and a prayer. I was sick of England," she said. "I went as a massage therapist and within a month was managing a lodge." She stayed in Africa for four years.
It was not unknown territory. Until 15, Liz had grown up in Africa, South America and the Middle East, her father a tropical veterinary surgeon.
Greg owned his own lodge in Malawi, where they met. When he returned to Australia, she came with him and they married in 2005. They started trying for a baby straight away, "just thinking it would happen". Liz was 36. After no success for 16 months, they were referred to a fertility clinic,
They found there were problems with Greg's sperm but, physically, Liz was fine. Over the next decade, they would see fertility clinics in Canberra and Sydney, do six rounds of IVF and spend $40,000 but they were never successful in keeping a pregnancy.
"I started asking, 'What else could be going on?'. Physically, there was nothing wrong with me. Why weren't the IVFs taking? What's going on beneath it all?'," Liz said,
"Being a therapist, I looked inwards. I went to lots of therapists, lots of workshops, always trying to find the key.
"And of course the emotions were intense. And the emotions towards myself were the most severe. The self-attack. 'What's wrong with me?' You become more desperate and everything is heightened.
"You know, people get pregnant all the time. There's babies everywhere. And now it hurts. It's that mirror continually showing you what you can't have. "Why can't I do what everyone finds so easy to do?' So it becomes really painful."
It was when she was in her early 40s that Liz finally decided to give up on a baby. She had to return to England where her mum was unwell. She couldn't receive any financial help for fertility treatment there because she was over 40. And then her sister-in-law fell pregnant at 40, on her first round of IVF.
"That floored me. It was awful. I knew I had to be happy for her, but it hurt," she said.
It was the final push she needed to move on with her life.
"I worked very hard on myself for a year," she said. "I didn't want to be someone who said, 'I wish I had'. I started to focus on not being a mother. I could spend all my money on myself, wake up when I wanted, learn to be a very good aunt.
"My husband and I started reconnecting. With the IVF, I felt like I was doing everything and 'Why can't he do more?' But to his mind, he was doing everything he could.
"It's difficult for partners. They are in their own pain and it's hard for you when you are in your own pain too.
"With letting go, we started to reconnect, We started to have fun. We were impulsive. Went on holidays."
Liz also found the courage to confront the pain of being sexually abused as a child by a family member. She had buried her feelings. She felt the child she so desperately wanted was now the gift that allowed her to deal with the abuse and the "self-sabotage" that had dogged her in her younger years.
"I went on a journey to find a baby and when I gave up, when I was 42, 43, I thought, 'I have to thank that child I never had because I've become a happier, more centred individual because I've had to deal with all this'. The fertility journey allowed me to heal my past," she said.
At the same time, they were dealing with Greg's own emotions, the fact that he did, truly, want a child. That he believed he could be a father, when, previously, he had had misgivings.
Then, when she was 45, Liz started to feel sick.
"I thought it was menopause. My periods had stopped. I thought, 'Well, that was quick'.
"I had to see a doctor because I was so sick and he said you're actually about nine weeks pregnant . At which I said, 'You must be joking'," she said.
The journey was not over yet. The three-week scan revealed the baby might have a genetic problem or chromosomal complication. Liz continued to believe and her little girl, Willow Rose, was born naturally, perfectly healthy, on July 27, 2015, when Liz was 46. She and Greg were finally parents.
"When people are in that deep, dark hole of infertility, it can be very difficult to get out of it. I want to help women realise that the impossible can be made possible when we look inside and heal," she said.