Josh Hodgson is blown away by the sheer size of Australia's bushfires and the horrendous suffering it's caused.
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But the Canberra Raiders co-captain is also blown away by the way the world - not just rugby league - has rallied to the cause.
As an Englishman, bushfires are a foreign thing for the Raiders star and he was shocked by what he witnessed when he returned from spending Christmas back home.
The smoke blowing into Canberra and turning the air toxic was an indication of the scale of the fires, but it wasn't until Hodgson looked at a map that it really struck home.
"It's been unbelievable how far it's actually spread," he said.
"You don't take it into account until you see it on a map and see how far it's gone. It's shocking really.
"But on the flipside of that, not only the rugby league community, but the world in general, has really come together and really done as much as they can for everyone affected.
"It's been fantastic. It's great to see some good come out of the bad."
That good has come in the form of a flood of donations from around the world.
Canberra tennis star Nick Kyrgios played a role in getting the money ball rolling, with rugby league players following suit.
Raiders recruit Cameron Scott started a GoFundMe page and raised more than $25,000.
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He chipped in the first $5000 and he had teammates - past and present - donating as well.
Canberra fullback Charnze Nicoll-Klokstad auctioned his grand final boots and one of his jerseys to raise more than $13,000.
The Raiders also encouraged fans to donate at their open training session as part of their 10-day camp on the Sunshine Coast.
While the loss of life and the loss of people's homes has been shocking, Hodgson was reassured by that reaction.
The NRL has turned round one, including the Raiders' clash against the Gold Coast Titans at Canberra Stadium on March 13, into a massive fundraiser.
They've also moved the pre-season trial between Penrith and Parramatta to Bega to help take business to the devastated south coast.
Hodgson played in the Raiders' trial against Canterbury there last year and was looking forward to returning in 2021 - when the Green Machine have already committed to playing a pre-season game in Bega.
"It's horrendous. When you sit back and think people's whole homes have burnt down and they've got small families, or they live by themselves," he said.
"They've lost everything in the fire and they've got to start from scratch.
"It's certainly very scary, certainly for people in and around the fires when you don't when you're going to get touched by them as well.
"But when you're the people who have lost their homes and lost everything I can only imagine the amount of suffering that they've been through."
Just as the response to the bushfires had been a positive, Hodgson felt their camp had as well.
They're expected to return to Canberra on Saturday night.
With the smoke from the bushfires on the NSW south coast playing havoc with Canberra's air, the Raiders were forced to head north to train.
The Brumbies were also forced to flee, heading to Newcastle for a 10-day camp.
Without family around it's meant the Raiders have had more time to work on things - not just during the days like they normally would, but also using the nights as well.
It means they've been able to cram in more than they would've if they were at home.
Hodgson said it was especially useful given they only got the entire squad together on January 6.
That's when a host of players, like their England internationals, returned after playing several Tests following the NRL grand final.
Any training day lost to the smoke ahead of round one would've been costly.
"In terms of training it's been a real blessing coming up here," Hodgson said.
"The club's done a really good thing for us, bringing us up here. Especially if we want to improve on last year.
"We've needed this. We would've certainly been behind the eight ball if we'd been stuck in Canberra and not been able to train."