Readjusting your Olympic Games goals are easy when the mental health hurdles you've already jumped over are far more confronting.
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So Catriona Bisset wants you to know mental health doesn't have to be a weakness. She says speaking about it can make you stronger, which is exactly why she has thrown her support behind an AIS-driven initiative.
The fastest 800 metre woman in Australian running history wants her story to encourage others to see the light even during their darkest moments.
Because if Canberra-raised Bisset hadn't found her own light she certainly wouldn't be preparing herself to make an rescheduled Olympic debut next year.
"In the last 12 months my perspective changed, it's taken a long time to see myself as a personal athlete and a lot of that was because how I felt when I was younger," Bisset said.
"I thought because of my mental health it wasn't possible for me. But now I've had to reshape everything.
"It's not a fairytale where all of a sudden I'm healed. It's more about the experience I've had have made me ... they helped me run the Australian record and do everything I've done. And I'm proud of that.
"I have a psychologist who I have a strong connection with, I have an open relationship with my coach around mental distress. I've learnt emotional literacy over a decade of dealing with these things.
"So when things come up, like the Olympics being postponed, I know it's not devastating. I've dealt with a lot worse before and that's a huge advantage."
Bisset is one of 22 athletes, including four-time Paralympic shot-putter Louise Ellery, who will on Monday become the second intake of the AIS' Lifeline Community Custodians program to raise awareness and continue an important conversation.
The inaugural program raised more than $2 million and their successors will start their journey with the national emergency appeal campaign "you've got 30 seconds to save a life" to help fill a $5 million funding gap in the wake of coronavirus.
Bisset knows better than most how important Lifeline is given the journey she's been on since starting her athletics career as a Canberra junior.
She has battled depression, anxiety and an eating disorder, which halted her running career and led to suicidal thoughts.
When she eventually returned to running after a four-year absence she shocked everyone, including herself, when she beat a 43-year-old 800 metres record last year.
But Bisset has never been defined by a race clock. She wants her experiences on and off the track to tell a different story. One about resilience and how seeking help can change lives.
"I started having trouble with my mental health in my teens ... you think you're not cut out to be an athlete because you're not mentally strong," Bisset said.
"It's strange to look back at how horrible I was to myself. The satisfying thing about where I am is proving my younger-self wrong.
"A big part of it is who you surround yourself with. And being a role model, you want to help athletes not define themselves by time or medals.
"It's about having perspective about where you come from and the hurdles you personally have to overcome."
The increased anxiety related to coronavirus and the shutdown of many industries has led to Lifeline being inundated with requests for help.
More than 90,000 people reached out to the service in March, the highest rates in Lifeline's 57-year history. Good Friday was the busiest individual day, with 3200 calls received.
Ellery, who one Commonwealth Games gold in 2010 and is a two-time Paralympic medallist, said: "I have bipolar, have attempted suicide and suffer from depression
"...I really want to help people to learn that there's someone out there they can reach out to. I want people to know they're not alone.
"There's nothing like sport to get your brain in the right place. Physical exercise, it's so good for your mental health and spirits. It has certainly helped me."
Bisset added: "That's why this program really fits into that overlap between mental health and physical health.
"In these times ... you feel really helpless and a bit useless in being able to help everyone. But being able to directly donate to Lifeline is a way I can directly help anyone struggling, because there are so many of them right now.
"Everyone's under a lot more mental stress than usual right now.
"Hopefully we can help fill that funding gap that's needed. Everyone on Community Custodians program has different experiences ... hopefully people reading this article realise donating to Lifeline is really important and an impactful way of helping people in need.
"I want to think back to this time to think I did what I could to help those who need it instead of taking a break from training."