An honest Joey Leilua is frustrated by how his time in Canberra came to an end and feels he had more to give the Raiders.
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Now the 28-year-old has set his sights on helping the Wests Tigers return to the NRL top eight.
In his first interview since switching clubs, Leilua felt he wasn't given a "fair chance" to fight for his spot in the centres.
That spot on the right edge was going to be taken by Raiders recruit Curtis Scott, but his NRL future is now up in the air following his arrest for allegedly assaulting a police officer.
Leilua finalised a three-year deal with the Tigers on the same weekend Scott ended up spending a night in jail.
The Samoan international was "a bit filthy" to be left behind in Canberra to train with the rehabilitation group because he was overweight, when the rest of the squad flew to the Sunshine Coast to escape the Canberra smoke.
He wanted to stake his claim to be in the Green Machine's starting 13 for their round one clash against the Gold Coast Titans at Canberra Stadium on March 13.
Plus he wanted to help the Raiders go one step further than 2019's grand final loss.
Instead, Leilua will likely suit up for Wests when they take on St George Illawarra at Wollongong two days later.
But he still loved his time in Canberra and the mates he made, including his fabled "Leipana" bromance with winger Jordan Rapana.
"The club I'll hold dearly to my heart because they gave me the chance to play there," he said.
"I made so many bonds there - 'Leipana' and all those great players.
"That will be surely missed, but when you've got to move you've got to move.
"I just wanted a fair chance to be in the team and I felt like I wasn't given a fair chance to get in that team.
"I know for a fact if I had a fair chance I'd be the starting centre on either side."
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He's already got May 9 circled on his calendar. That's when he'll face the Raiders for the first time.
Leilua said it was a shame it wasn't in Canberra - he has to wait until round 22 before Wests play at Canberra Stadium - with the round-nine clash to be played at Tamworth.
He's already issued an apology to his former teammates if they end up on the wrong end of his trademark aggression.
"I spoke to my ex-teammates and said whatever happens on the field stays on the field," Leilua said.
"You know me, I play with aggression. I don't mean to take it out on them, but if I do it's part of the game."
Leilua's young family will remain in Canberra while he settles in at his new club and finds a new home.
He's joined his brother Luciano at Concord and they'll have the chance to play together for the first time.
While he was looking forward to it, Leilua made the family pecking order clear.
"He's a good young kid. He trains hard. If he just sticks to what he's good at I'm sure he'll be fine," he said.
"But there's only one top dog in the family."
Disappointingly, Leilua revealed Tigers coach Michael Maguire wasn't as "crazy" as he's made out.
Maguire has a reputation as a hard task master, but Leilua was happy with his first impressions.
Wests finished ninth the past two seasons and haven't played finals since 2011. Leilua wants to help change that.
"I heard a lot of stories about [Maguire], but he's not as crazy as everyone else thinks," he said.
"He's been good for the team and for me it's just showing why I'm coming here.
"I'm not coming to take a holiday and cash out. I'm here to try and make the finals."